Just some old stuff

I just wanna give a shoutout to those who had their birthday this weekend, Adri, Andrew, and Chris.

Now some poems I have written back in the day then capped with a new one hope you enjoy them

To who should i look up to?
Thru all the predicaments,
all the problems im livin with
that make my heart have sentiment

To who should i look up to?
when my love turns into hate
when my life becomes in vain
when im in the midst of my shame

To who should i look up to?
thru all my achievements,
with all i believe in
when i cant find any reason

To who should i look up to?
when i fall on my knees in the mud,
when there is no presence of love,
when i find no meaning, but...

I look up to God of hope,
the God who extends His hand,
who gives one more opportunity, one more chance
The God where my conviction stands

I look up to the God of eternity,
The God who gives a new life,
The God who gives a new sight,
The God who won my fight,

I look up to the God of love,
the God i give my problems,
the God who will solve 'em
the God, to me, is awesome
I look up to the Almighty to lift my spirit to live one more day



VOLVER ES IGUAL QUE EL AYER
EL TIEMPO NO REGRESA
TIEMPO ES UNICO
Y VOLVER ES UN SUENO QUE NUNCA SE VA A REALIZAR
TRATAMOS DE FRENAR EL TIEMPO
PERO NO PODEMOS
VOLVER ES LO IDEAL
PARA CORREGIR LOS PROBLEMAS
PERO LO QUE PASO
ESTA ESCRITO YA
Y NO LO PUEDES BORRAR
SE QUEDA AHI PARA LA ETERNIDAD
Y NADA MAS PODEMOS REFLECCIONAR
"SI NO HUBIERA..."
"SI SOLO HUBIERA..."
EL VOLVER NO EXISTE
EL AYER NO EXISTE
TENEMOS QUE VIVIR POR HOY
PORQUE MANANA TAMPOCO EXISTE
VIVIMOS EN EL INSTANTE
CON PROBLEMAS O SIN
HOY ES EL DIA
EL HOY AFECTA EL MANANA
Y EL MANANA SE CONVIERTA AL AYER
Y A VER LO QUE VAS HACER HOY



after all my gains and my losses
until now im spiritually exhausted
if u noticed u asked me what the matter?
im tired was my common answer
if u see my facial expression was serious
then its cuz inside me its serious
ive got no one to turn to for help
ive got no one just me by myself
this is my life with my problems
even God, i have forgotten
my fights and my battles
sometime its too much to handle
all the pains and hurts accumulated
how much longer can i take it?
u see a smile on my face but in my eyez
u know there is something deep inside
that bothers me and i cant let it go
so im gonna let u know
that my spirit is very low
but i still hold onto my hope
a rep is a burden, too much weight
somerwhere the devil awaits
in the midst of my difficulties
God supplies me with the courage that i need




im trying to be all i can be
many people are condescending
i put what i got to say
then im put down by a pseudo-critic
saying what i write has no merit
so imma respond this way:
anyone can write, come up with a rhyme,
jot down some lines, but how many can bring it to life?
will the diction speak to the soul?
will it feed the mind to make it grow?
myself, i have appointed
i, through knowledge im anointed
tell me again this is pointless
imma let the coin flip
will it be head or tails?
will i'll be able to prevail?
will i excel? when will it be when i last exhale?
only time will tell
I will not fail
to deliver the message
disregard every blemish
make your potential active
if need be practice, practice, practice
Fact is, stuff will happen
never give up
if you do, the doors will shut



Grandfather clock goes tick tock tickity tock tick
Time is wise, it can reminisce
It knows the future bliss
Never explicit
Presently I'm just going to watch it
Grandfather clock goes tock tick, tick tock
Hey sage how much time do I got?
Combine the ancient with the future distant
The mix between fact and fiction
So is the present real?
Or just surreal?
Time is just a mystery
That's assured like facts in history
and history, we can't really explain it
Cuz we didn't live in the past, to see each fact and claim it
Grandfather clock infinite wisdom
Teach the meaning of life's system
Grandfather clock, are you going to make me wait?
I don't have time enlighten me for my life's sake
When your hands hits twelve
Please divulge yourself
When I here that ding with the dong
Tell me before I am gone….



I'm try to find Forever
have you seen it?
I will die trying to find it
until i burn out like a phoenix.
Forever feels like a myth
somewhere lost in the abyss;
I feel like givin' in
to this blank oblivion
but Forever is calling my name
I can't give up, look how far I came
Forever feels so close but so unreacheable
I can find Forever, to me its feasible
I don't want to die alone in the midst of a multitude
If i do ever find Forever, then everyone would be induced
that nothing is impossible
overcome any obstacle
Never is never
until I find Forever




Cuando veo el azul del cielo
Pienso en mi unico deseo
que es solo decirte que te quiero
pero cada vez cuando te veo
ya no puedo
Y pierdo la unica oportunidad que tengo
si quisieras, te daria el firmamento
si pudiera, haria todo para estar contigo un momento
si solo pudiera decir lo que siento
que solo quiero darte un beso
amarte, cuidarte que estes contenta estare contento
te cumplire mil promesas
pero cuando te veo me van las fuerzas
y pienso en tu respuesta
si te dijera que te quiero
en mi corazon a un duelo
si dijeras que si o que no
y si es "no," seria un dolor sin consuelo
pero duele tambien a no decirtelo
como pudiera verte y hacerte
ver que nadie puede quererte
como yo
y no se como decirtelo
todo lo que hago
es solo buscar una oportunidad para decir "Te amo"



I try to express with words
I gave my heart to poetry
Each unit is a needle
That is constantly sewing me
Back together
I gave my heart to poetry
It is my escape
When others are condoning me
Expression of self is my safe haven
At times I feel no feeling in it
Like I have a wounded spirit
My soul is at the clinic
At my face at a grimace
There I overcome and will never finish
Walk out back into the free world
Demented and twisted world
I gave my heart to poetry
Never will give an ode to me
Maybe a haiku for people like you
In need of help
Need to be loved and accepted
Maybe an Italian sonnet
For a pretty lady, I’m on it
Maybe use my ability
For a soliloquy
To those fallen unsung heroes
Couplets, syllables, rhymes
Metaphors, similes, lines
Shakespeare to Hughes,
Shakur to Pascual
I gave my heart to poetry
My heart beats to life
Poetry
The written account
Of what I have seen, felt
Expression of Self
I gave my heart to poetry